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俄勒冈州SALEM。基普·金克尔在1998年俄勒冈高中发生枪击事件前杀死了他的父母，杀死了两名同学，打伤了25人。他接受了第一次新闻采访，告诉《赫芬顿邮报》，他感到“巨大的、巨大的耻辱和内疚”。
现年38岁的金克尔正在俄勒冈州立监狱服事实上的无期徒刑。10个月来，他与新闻网站通了大约20个小时的电话。
他说，他感到内疚不仅仅是因为他15岁时患有当时尚未确诊的偏执型精神分裂症，还因为他的罪行对其他被判无期徒刑的少年犯的影响:他的案件被他的一些受害者和其他人搁置，作为反对该州少年司法改革的理由。
他说，虽然他以前没有接受过采访，因为他不想进一步伤害受害者，但他也开始觉得，他的沉默阻止了这些罪犯获得第二次机会。
“我对自己15岁时造成的伤害负有责任，”金克尔说。“但我也有责任为我现在造成的伤害负责，因为我38岁了，因为我15岁时做了什么。”
金克尔描述了他从12岁起就一直听到声音，以及他如何痴迷于刀、枪和炸药，认为中国将入侵美国，政府和华特·迪士尼公司在他的头部植入了微芯片。
1998年5月19日，当他在斯普林菲尔德的瑟斯顿高中被抓时，他从另一名学生那里买到了一把偷来的手枪，“我的整个世界都爆炸了，”他说。“所有的安全感——能够控制威胁的感觉——都消失了。”
他说，面对驱逐、可能的重罪指控和巨大的羞耻感，他脑海中的声音让他相信他必须杀死他的父母，然后回到学校“杀死所有人”。
第二天，他杀死了他的父母，第二天，他在学校食堂开枪，打死了16岁的本·沃克和17岁的米凯尔·尼古拉森，打伤25人，随后被其他学生制服。
他认罪了——当时，他不想接受自己的诊断，并感受到了社区要求解决此案的压力，而不是以精神错乱为由认罪。他在多次道歉后被判近112年徒刑。
“我为我的所作所为感到无比的羞愧和内疚，”他告诉赫芬顿邮报。“我讨厌我有罪的暴力。”
金克尔射中了贝蒂娜·林恩的后背和脚。她告诉《赫芬顿邮报》，他出去的想法“简直可怕”她有永久性神经损伤，不断提醒发生了什么。
林恩说:“即使是现在，23年多过去了，我和许多其他幸存者仍在应对辐射影响。”。"我们都在和他一起服无期徒刑。"
金克尔描述了他是如何在青少年监狱接受精神健康治疗的，在那里他开始服刑，并认识到他伤害了无辜的人，包括他爱的父母。他还说，当他得知1999年科罗拉多州科伦拜恩高中的大屠杀时，他哭了，害怕是他引发的。
金克尔在狱中获得了大学学位，他继续对州最高法院维持的判决提出质疑。今年3月，他的律师向联邦法院提交了一份请愿书，称他的请求不是自愿的——他已经停药几周了——他的判决违反了宪法。
他的律师写道:“因为青少年患有精神疾病而判处他们在监狱中死亡是违反第八修正案的。”。
2019年，作为全国重新评估青少年严厉犯罪判决的努力的一部分，俄勒冈州立法机构通过了一项措施，停止自动将15至17岁的青少年因某些罪行提交成人法院，并确保他们不会被判处终身监禁，没有机会寻求假释。当时，大约有十几个人因青少年时期犯下的罪行服无期徒刑或相当于无期徒刑。
但批评人士警告称，该措施可能导致金克尔获释，一个月后，议员们通过了另一项法案，明确表示该措施不具有追溯效力。
金克尔的受害者本·沃克的兄弟亚当·沃克在当时发布的一段视频中说:“他15岁并不重要。”。“受害者没有第二次机会。为什么要违者?”
金克尔说他在监狱图书馆看了辩论。
“这就像，有希望，”金克尔说。“然后是立法机关...回来后说，“不，我们特别地、故意地、故意地利用我们所拥有的一切，从已经在系统中的孩子那里拿走这些东西。”"
他说，他不经常考虑被释放的可能性:“我不允许自己花太多时间考虑这个问题，因为我认为这实际上会带来更多的痛苦。”
1998 Oregon school shooter: There's 'tremendous shame and guilt'
SALEM, Ore. -- Kip Kinkel, who killed his parents before going on a shooting rampage at his Oregon high school in 1998, killing two classmates and injuring 25 more, has given his first news interview, telling HuffPost he feels “tremendous, tremendous shame and guilt.”
Kinkel, now 38, is serving a de facto life sentence at the Oregon State Correctional Institution. He spoke with the news site by phone for about 20 hours over 10 months.
He said he felt guilty not just for what he did as a 15-year-old suffering from then-undiagnosed paranoid schizophrenia, but the effect his crime has had on other juvenile offenders sentenced to life terms: His case has been held up by some of his victims and by others as a reason to oppose juvenile justice reform in the state.
While he has not previously given interviews because he did not want to further traumatize his victims, he said, he also began to feel that his silence was preventing those offenders from getting a second chance.
“I have responsibility for the harm that I caused when I was 15," Kinkel said. "But I also have responsibility for the harm that I am causing now as I’m 38 because of what I did at 15.”
Kinkel described how he had been hearing voices since age 12 and how he became obsessed with knives, guns and explosives, believing China was going to invade the U.S. and that the government and the Walt Disney Co. had implanted a microchip in his head.
When he was caught at Thurston High School in Springfield with a stolen handgun he bought from another student on May 19, 1998, "My whole world blew up,” he said. “All the feelings of safety and security — of being able to take control over a threat — disappeared.”
Facing expulsion, a possible felony charge and an enormous sense of shame, he said, the voices in his head made him believe he had to kill his parents and then return to school to “kill everybody.”
He killed his parents the next day, and the day after that he opened fire in the school cafeteria, killing 16-year-old Ben Walker and 17-year-old Mikael Nickolauson and injuring 25 before being subdued by other students.
He pleaded guilty — at the time, he did not want to accept his diagnosis and felt community pressure to resolve the case rather than plead not guilty by reason of insanity. He was sentenced to nearly 112 years after apologizing profusely.
“I feel tremendous, tremendous shame and guilt for what I did,” he told HuffPost. “I hate the violence that I’m guilty of.”
Kinkel shot Betina Lynn in the back and foot. She told HuffPost the idea of him ever getting out is “literally terrifying.” She has permanent nerve damage, a constant reminder of what happened.
“Even now, more than 23 years later, I and many other survivors are still dealing with the fallout," Lynn said. "We are all serving life sentences right alongside him.”
Kinkel described how he underwent mental health treatment at the youth prison where he began his sentence and recognized he harmed innocent people, including his parents, whom he loved. He also said he cried when he learned about the 1999 massacre at Columbine High School in Colorado, afraid that he had inspired it.
Kinkel, who has obtained a college degree behind bars, continues to challenge his sentence, which was upheld by the state Supreme Court. In March, his attorneys filed a petition in federal court, arguing that his plea was not voluntary — he had been off his meds for several weeks beforehand — and that his sentence was unconstitutional.
“Sentencing a juvenile to die in prison because they suffer from a mental illness is a violation of the Eighth Amendment,” his lawyers wrote.
In 2019, as part of a national effort to re-evaluate tough-on-crime sentences for juveniles, the Oregon Legislature passed a measure to stop automatically referring 15- to 17-year-olds to adult court for certain offenses and to ensure that they weren't sentenced to life in prison without a chance to seek parole. At the time, there were about a dozen people serving life or life-equivalent terms for crimes committed as juveniles.
But critics warned that that the measure could lead to Kinkel's release, and a month later, lawmakers passed another bill to make clear that the measure was not retroactive.
“It doesn’t matter if he was 15,” Adam Walker, the brother of Kinkel's victim Ben Walker, said in a video released at the time. “The victims don’t get second chances. Why should the offenders?”
Kinkel said he watched the debate in the prison library.
“It was like, there was hope,” Kinkel said. “And then the Legislature ... came back and said, 'No, we are specifically, intentionally, purposely with everything that we have, going to take this away from the kids already in the system.'”
He said he doesn't often consider the possibility of ever being released: “I don’t allow myself to spend too much time thinking about that because I think that can actually bring more suffering.”
